I just let down the one person who has always been there for me, I have never felt so guilty and ashamed of myself and I didn’t even know that I had hurt her feelings.
She must think so low of me, I’m a terrible friend and I might have just lost the closest and most loyal friend that I’ve ever had.
I’m an absolute mess over this, I know there’s nothing I can do or say to earn her forgiveness and if I lose her then there is no point in my being here anymore. She is the person who showed me my life had meaning and without her support then I won’t be able to last.
I am pathetic, I’m a fuck up. I can’t do anything right.
For what it’s worth, I’m sorry.. I don’t expect you to forgive me. I don’t know what I’m going to do without you ☺️
I push everyone away but in a way I’m doing them a favor
I don’t know how in just two days I can fuck up something so good. It’s like I don’t exist to her anymore.
Trust me to fuck it up. I am a fuck up.
What was I even thinking? A girl that amazing wouldn’t be caught dead with me.
I am pathetic. Can’t fucking do anything right.
I don’t know when to stop talking, I’m going to make her resent me if I keep this up 😢